Disastrous yet Hopeful Day...

These few days have been disastrous. Since this year is my last year in CGL, and the first year my sis is in CGL, I've decided to put up a duet just by the two of us during Speech Day - a viola and cello duet. I was all excited and enthusiastic about it. Hoping to put up our best, i arranged the songs with my mum. The tiny 'bean sprout' notes really strained our eyes. Nevertheless, with our enthusiasm and determination, we finally finished arranging our version of the medley Lelaki Ini and Tong Hua. Phewww..........

Practising with my partner a.k.a. my sister was a pleasure, until...........

She couldn't get the timing right. Feeling disappointed and irritated, i kinda voiced up my frustration in a tone which might have hurt her teeny weeny heart - a harsh and insulting tone. After thinking about it, i realized my mistake.

Yet again, she was hurt by SOMEONE during String Ensemble practice today. A happy-go-lucky girl, though still inexperienced, is now down with frustration in her. She's lost her dignity, her self-esteem, and deeply hurt by her teacher. I truly understand her now....
However, something that happened during SE today made me highly suspicious of what 'she' has done. Both my close friends Joyce and Patsy have the same thoughts. Jumping to conclusions is a very irrespectful act, but it's such a norm that 'she' is always selfish and egoistic, and therefore, i'd say that it was just a smart hypothesis by us which is still yet to be proven true.

Whatever happened, i just hope that my sis and i will be able to perform during Speech Day - a day for her to expand the wing-span of her creative spirit, a day where she can redeem her dignity and self-esteem, a day where she can show those people her gifts, her talents, and that she can! Deep down in my heart, i really hope that i can make it up to her for what i've done, and to help her be herself again. I'm very grateful to those who have shown me their full support - my friends Joyce,Patsy and Kar Pei, my parents, Pn. Yon, and lastly, but definitely not the least, my dearest sister Xin Zhi......